it's been 20 days since daddy left. think within this pretty short period of time i've learnt and realised alot. be it the good or the bad things. yes hurray, joey's no longer that young blur little girl.

Lessons learnt:

1. never believe what people promised. they're all bullshit.

2. your closest people may not be the best to you. but the best people will always be your closest people.

3. to live on and live well we gonna be ourself and love people we should love and leave no regrets.

4. never expect people to be nice to you. but be nice to yourself.

5. never expect to get back 100% of what you've contributed be it love, time or money.

afterall the key to survival in this world is to be a selfish brat who only cares bout him/herself. but is life going to be better off that way? perhaps im too naive in the past to think that everyone should deserve what they get according to how much contribution and effort they put in. but apparently the world is just not functioned in this way. we will never get what we give. and worse we get nothing. of cos to the closest people we should never care how much we give cos these people are our special ones. but when reality hit your face, u will realised how ugly and heartless this world can be. oh well, life still goes on. maybe we just need someone close to constantly remind us that there is still love in this world and there are still true people who're true to you. as for me they'll be my mommy, my family and those specials darlings whom no need to be mentioned cos u know who u are.

i've lost someone whom i've never learnt to love and appreciate, and even took him for granted. for now its too late for anything to be done. so i really do hope everyone will learn to appreciate and show all your concern and love to your closest one. perhaps this is just one selfish act of mine to hope u guys can fulfill what i haven't and could never be done. but being able to love one is definitely the best ever thing in the world just like being loved by someone.

lets move on (: